Gratitude

Always doubted
the lasting value of insights
but they seem handy
there and then
when a decision needs to be made.
Hindsight in advance
being impossible
I know
saying that this pain
might turn out good for me
achieves nothing.
And so we live
hopefully
from a challenge
to a challenge
brave at times
to decide.

But gratitude
is different.
Gratitude makes everything
absolutely everything
better.
Calling for perspective
irks some.
But gratitude is different.
Grateful
that I am not being shot at
as my heart bleeds metaphorically.
Grateful
that I dont have to beg
when I'm leaving a home behind.
Grateful
for that earthquake that is You
bringing my world crashing down
spurring me on to rediscover what matters.

No matter what happens.
Gratitude.
Because it is true.

So I dye my hair orange
wash the walls
and say Thank You.

But go on Hoping.