Day 3 at the Rehab

Day 3
And still no drama
But drama is the least of the worries
It is obvious
I can spot it by a mile

Its the other kind
That needs keeping an eye on
The niggly feeling
The shakes of my hands
This is brutal
This starving
Cold turkey
Just the breath for nourishment
A part of me screaming
Begging and pleading
For more-
It turns out its the same
Excitement
Or Anxiety
Same same
One used to feel
More pleasant than the other
But looking at them today
Same same
Both hurt

Day 3
Still going strong
The thinking cut down
To the bare necessity
Dont even bother
All I have is
Relax 1,2,3...

Amazing early results
With neighbours
Estate agents
Mothers in-law
This keeps me going

Relax 1,2,3
Gotta keep on breathing
My way out of this mess

Curious to see
Whats under
This low level stress

Frightened
How numb I find myself
Loveless
Like a woman I know
Frightened
I might have died
My love muscle
Atrophied
Unusable
Dead

All I have to go by
Is this
Resisting that What Is
Is futile
Gotta go with the flow
Gotta keep on breathing
Relax 1,2,3

The Girl
Was showed to me last night
Pouting
And crying
Daddy I'm sorry,
I broke the blender,
Will they fire me?
Daddy please pick me up
The bastard wont let me stay
Daddy please make it all better
You understand, dont you?
With your big Daddy mind
You'll always be there for me,
You can read my mind, cant you?

Relax 1,2,3
It still works you see

Baby steps
And going light on myself.
Bury whats dead
Compassionately
Nurture whats injured
Patiently
And just be

Its a simple as
Relax 1,2,3...