True to Myself

Now you say
Can this love last, do you love me enough, how will I keep your interest

First I stop, wait for the fear to fade
Before I can think

Insecurity is my middle name
or may be it was

Because if I am honest with myself
Gutted, bereft, saddened I would be to lose your admiration
But I would go on

Connectedness I embrace, addiction I confess
But dependence I will avoid like black plague
Been there done that

Is there a difference between constant challenge to grow
And constant feeling of not being good enough?

Well I say to you
I am good enough
I am better than good
I am complete
Clever may be not
Gifted not likely
But I am alive

I am that beam
Breaking out of the closet
I give my light
I have nothing else to give
All of my light I give